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the-great-gatsby

上回讀大亨小傳是在十年前,那時對長島的印象只有蔣宋美齡和有錢人住的地方,天曉得十年後我會來到這裡。儘管對當時文化背景不是很熟悉,但仍為主角蓋茨比Gatsby的深情所深深感動。十年後我來到長島,書中記得的僅剩那盞對岸的燈。於是在離開這兒之前,我想再重溫一下這個發生在長島的故事。

待在這兒二年後,再看書中歷歷彷彿有種回憶倒帶的效果。我可以想像蓋茨比豪宅前無垠的沙灘、長島海峽Long Island Sound遲幕時的水彩夕色、漢普頓夏莊的閒散富麗、至賓夕法尼亞車站的列車、炎熱的曼哈頓下午,Plaza酒店的下午茶。在穿過皇后大橋 Queensboro Bridge的嘆息中我們看遍了這個城市。我也可以想像在漫漫長冬裡中西部灰白色的孤寂,透過花環和霜雪的窗櫺看著外頭街燈的夜晚。但到如今最讓我感動的,依舊是蓋茨比的深情與他在濁世裡顯現的光輝。

剛好在看完這本書後我看了個表演”Play Without Words“,一齣用肢體及音樂來表現摩登又錯亂世界下的外遇,同樣地這齣劇也有種霓虹彩裳裡墮落的美。透過無言的舞蹈和撩人的琴弦,不禁勾起了心中那片屬於蓋茨比的、歌舞昇平中的迷惘、繁華紅塵裡的悲涼,儘管當時胃裡油膩的卜派炸雞讓我神智趨近昏迷。

我想此書的迷人之處,除了夢縈魂牽燈火欄珊的痴情外,那朝生夕死、狂亂痴迷在一夕之間煙雲散去的美也是原因之一。(插歌插歌,NewOrder – Ruined in a day~)想起電影Big Fish裡的一段話:
They say, when you meet the love of your life, time stops, and that’s true.
What they don’t tell you is that when it starts again, it moves extra fast to catch up.

流連多年的殘夢可以在一個長島的夏天幾乎伸手可及,而夢醒卻又以最殘酷最無情的方式在瞬息間散盡。也許這正是為何一切剛成形時是最難忘的,而得不到的永遠是最美的。在The Beach這部片中描寫的”天堂”或許可以拿來當作看完後的註解:

I still believe in paradise. But now at least I know it’s
not some place you can look for, cause it’s not where you go.
It’s how you feel for a moment in your life when you’re a part
of something, and if you find that moment…
It lasts forever.

下面是書中最讓我難忘的部份:

He came back from France when Tom and Daisy were still on their wedding trip,
and made a miserable but irresistible journey to Louisville on the last of his army pay.
He stayed there a week, walking the streets where their footsteps had clicked together
through the November night and revisiting the out-of-the-way places
to which they had driven in her white car.
Just as Daisy’s house had always seemed to him more mysterious and gay than other houses,
so his idea of the city itself, even though she was gone from it,
was pervaded with a melancholy beauty.

He left feeling that if he had searched harder,
he might have found her — that he was leaving her behind.
The day-coach — he was penniless now — was hot.
He went out to the open vestibule and sat down on a folding-chair,
and the station slid away and the backs of unfamiliar buildings moved by.
Then out into the spring fields, where a yellow trolley raced them for a minute
with people in it who might once have seen the pale magic of her face along the casual street.

The track curved and now it was going away from the sun, which as it sank lower,
seemed to spread itself in benediction over the vanishing city where she had drawn her breath.
He stretched out his hand desperately as if to snatch only a wisp of air,
to save a fragment of the spot that she had made lovely for him.
But it was all going by too fast now for his blurred eyes and he knew that he had lost that part of it,
the freshest and the best, forever.
(註: 嗚~ Q_Q forever~)






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我對大亨小傳有一言難盡的感想,總而言之就是愛不釋手。第一作者把英
文寫得很美,物質描述和文字的華麗極盡風情萬種,然而這中間卻極盡蒼
涼,把浮華人生的難以捉模,人世間精神與肉體的渴求拿捏得恰到好處
(講起來應該欲罷不能,我還曾特地針對小說裏面各種特定顏色的用法,
寫了一篇論文)。再者,我的人生境遇中有很多和這本書有關係的巧合,
讓我不得不私心偏愛它。

蓋茲比執迷一生的不過是個看似天真甜美卻平庸虛榮的女子,偉大的愛找
錯契合的對象。把物質富裕弄到最高點之後,心靈還是只能挫折,一輩子
得的堅持最終只是波瀾不興的死亡,這小小一本書投影了書出版之後
(1925~)資本主義更猖狂的世界,寓意深重,顯得既真實又恐佈。

好包子 at April 1, 2005 03:26 PM comment

數年前我也看了這本書,老實說沒有非常特別的感覺.
不過數年後週康你這麼一提,雖然故事的細節已經模模糊糊,
但是想起這個故事就覺得有一股哀愁.

現在我才稍微懂得這個故事,
我好像感覺得到Gatsby內心無限的空虛.

人生最怕這樣了,好像擁有了一切,但是你什麼也沒有.
我似乎感覺到那樣的痛苦了,哀唷~

罵可王

markrenton at April 2, 2005 11:54 PM comment

To包子:
論文是吧~嘿嘿… ^^”

To馬克王:
空虛什麼~你有咱們哥兒們啊!!
再降子我要做越洋家庭電話訪問… XD

Derek at April 3, 2005 03:57 PM comment

^^”

好包子 at April 4, 2005 03:42 AM comment

來讀一下

weimew at April 6, 2005 01:27 PM comment

讀你千遍也不厭倦,讀你的感覺像三月。
浪漫的季節,醉人的詩篇。唔~~~~~

Derek at April 7, 2005 02:18 AM comment

女神的弟弟果然不凡
你確定你不是外文系的嗎?

Baonei at April 10, 2005 10:54 AM comment

0.0 不用外文系吧= = 這是 大概11年級的 課外讀物

學校11年級的指定書

Jimmy at September 26, 2007 12:36 PM comment

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